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외할머니의
서세(逝世)를
애도하며
얼마
전에 미국의 외삼촌과 함께 살고 계신 외할머니께서 돌아가셨다는 전갈이
왔습니다. 외할머니의 마지막 나날 동안 조금도 곁에 있어드리지 못하고
또, 문상도 못가는 죄스러운 마음을 짤막한 애도문에 담았습니다. 한글로
이메일 왕래를 할 수 없는 미국의 사촌에게 영어로 그 애도문을 보냈습니다.
I
just spoke with your father on the phone.
I am truly sorry
that we are presently unable to attend grandma's funeral. I don't
want to utter any apologies about that. I am just sorry. Please
be there for your cousins, mourning for grandma far apart here in
Korea. But I have no doubt that the physical distance does not apply
to grandma's soul. She might be just next to me right at this moment.
I
weep. However, I have no doubt that grandma has returned to the
realm of absolute peace and blessing, so I do not despair. I never
knew this before, but now that grandma has abruptly passed away,
I think I can see what a gloriously blessed life she was allowed
to have during her lifetime here with us, despite all the horrible
hardships and sufferings she had to go through, including her dauthers'
deaths. I know her life was blessed because of us, her dearly beloved
children. She had instilled deep, unconditional love deep in our
hearts. Now that she's gone, I suddenly realize how greatly her
love for me had nurtured my soul and my life.
With her grandchildren
like me here weeping and remembering her, and celebrating her magnificent
life of spreading love and nurturing little souls, I believe our
grandma is smiling up there with angels -- or right here with us.
I thank grandma, and I thank you, my cousin.
Couldn't convey
my deep condolence to your father through the overseas phone call.
I would really appreciate if you can share this letter of mine with
your father and mother and your brother and sisters, as well.
I
will pray more.
Love, oppa
* Would you please let
me know the precise time of the funeral, so that I may join only
with my prayer?
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